I woke up early this morning, spent from 6-8am with the kids, then jumped into bed from 8-9 and prayed. As soon as I got in to the office, I grabbed my live dead journal and was excited to see what the challenge for today was. After reading it, I’ wasn’t quite as excited. Today’s topic spoke to the very core of what I am taking the entire year of 2012 to work on in my life.
Being average…
I don’t mean I want to be average in the things I do, I will always strive for excellence. But I have an incessant need to always try and be the best. When we play sports, I play to win instead of to enjoy the people and the game. When I work, I feel like I need to outwork everyone else so that I stand out above the rest. This constant need for perfection is something I’m taking the year to work on.
Part of that challenge is putting other people before myself, and not thinking more highly of myself than I do of others. It’s not my fault that God did such an amazing job when he created me 😉 But it can cause pride, and that’s a struggle I face, and I’m having a great 2012 already working at combating that.
I’ve taken more time to intentionally build others up this year, instead of myself or my own ministry. Part of living dead is emptying myself of myself, my aspirations, my wants, my needs, my dreams, and especially “our obsessive desire to be better than others.” I want everything that God has for me, and it’s time to get rid of the need to be better than everyone else.
So when I say my goal is to be average, it really just means I want to be OK that everyone is being built up and successful, and not feeling the need to one up anyone for recognition. If being average means that everyone around me is serving God with excellence, and we’re all on a level playing field; well that seems like something God would be excited about. So that’s what I’m working on, would you pray for me?
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